Slow Going

So things have been pretty uneventful since my last post.
I auditioned for quite a few shows here on the GVSU campus including RENT and Into the Woods. For RENT I was called back for the ensemble but to be a part of the production meant quitting my job and losing $200 every two weeks. It just wasn't the right thing to do at this time in my life. I need the money. Into the Woods was auditioning but since it was based in the Opera theatre I was a little bit out of my league and didn't get called back. During both of these audtions, RENT and Into the Woods, I was struggling with the sore throat troubles I mention below.
I have also auditioned for a Shakespeare Company based in Grand Rapids, as they were casting for Pericles. Even though I was not cast, I have been asked to audition again for their production of Hamlet next year and be a part of their small company that performs at small random venues like Barnes and Noble.

Life has been rather frustrating for me lately. I have been very sick with some type of sinus or nasal illness and can't seem to get it to go away. It has caused a lot of trouble for my voice. There are days where singing is almost impossible. There are other days where I am surprised by the clarity of my voice. I am taking a class this semester called voice for Non-music majors. Many of our assignments require singing and we even perform in class. I can't say how many times I've had to ask for a few days off for vocal rest, too afraid to sing with my voice in the condition it is in that day. I'm afraid to sing. That's really depressing me. I am even more depressed when I try singing and the sound that comes out is unfamiliar and not good.

So basically the last few months have been slow and depressing. If my voice doesn't clear up soon I'll be searching desperately to find every possible solution besides the doctor, since she didn't help any when I saw her in September. I'll just have to be really careful, take things slowly, and hope that I can get my voice back to tip-top health. My career depends on it.